Another day of turmoil, when will it end. I ask myself what I should do, do I carry on with this mad, demanding project I have got myself embroiled in, or do I call it a day and gently fade into the mist without a by your leave or a good-bye.
Sometimes it seems like the most sane thing to do, the kindest to myself and my family. I do feel as if I am trudging through treacle and the weight of my own expectations is slowly hammering me into the ground. I need to find a way out of this trap I have got myself into. Go back to rationality and objectivity, not madness and subjectivity.
Don't know, don't know, don't know... Let's see what next week brings.